i seems like visiting all sort of library those day.
past few days was jurong library, bukit batok library.

saturday was woodlands library.
with my primary sch friend, mirian.
we study together as i mention in my previous post. (did i ? stm)

then today, study with my cousin, shawn.
actually just took his notes and copy that all.
this time was bukit merah library.

after, head to popular to buy some guide books for science,
and also pens, and other necessary items.

i am tired, really tired.
didnt i have to stick to all this route to study.
1month plus more, minhui. TAHAN !
i have little confidence in myself to do well for my Os.
way little, my science didnt manage to pass yet.
math been deproving, A1 is hard to aim for now.
english, a pass is a joy.
combine humanties also deproving.
F&N goshh.. didnt even memories a single things for theory.
nw what's study ?
MEMORIES, REMEMBER & MAINTAIN !

nw, can i say this again.
i feel that i am stupid.
really stupid.
i am very stupid.
stupid minhui !

woodland library with mirian.
4pm - 7pm.
nt really in study mood today.
didnt eat throughout the day and tong till 8plus for dinner.
dinner at mos and walk ard at pasar malam there.
home, ard 10.

dont go, and why make a big fuss.
now i understand.
independence.

principal challenge today.
went to sch early in the morning to help.
carry those cartons of mineral waters in to the bus.
the bus is SMALL and HOT (air-con less)
windows open, wind.
sat with dinna.
she is a joker, she is afraid of COCKROACH !
hahaas.

bus to sch, and acc yanqi,
she is nt running.
nothing to help out as we were under the 'reserve helper'.
so walk ard with her, the toliet was FAR.
stay at end point and watch those runners complete their run.
drizzle slightly but the run continue.

after, breakfast at mac with yanqi, denise and yienqing.
head home separately.
home and slept for few hours.

lunch and head to sch for night study.
with yienqing.
denise with her classmates.
yanqi join us.
5A/5B have social studies.
and ong asked us to do too.
so done tgt with yienqing and answer checked.
head to bus stop and it's still early.
so hang ard till 10.
and home nw.
am i?
PAIN !

long taken pictures,

SATURDAY
finally met my primary friend,
and we went studying at jurong library.
so pack and we sat at one of the shelf at lvl 3.
end up, we felt uncomfortable with the position.
and head to find another place.
lvl 4, there is band preformance there.
though it's nosiy.
but we still study there.
and when they finally finish preforming,
we have lot's of seats available.
study till 7.
and left for dinner.
home.

the band preformance.

my friend studying, dont think she noe i take this.

we plan for next gathering with primary mates on 1sept.
i will inform the girls, and jinghao will inform the boys.
next week sat mirian and i say to study tgt again.
but this time at woodland library,
jurong library too many people.

SUNDAY
wake up at 10.30,
bath and head to temple which stated near sch.
to pray for my ah-ma, tgt with my family,
except my sister, she is a lazY bum.
went breakfast (fishball noodles)
then temple, left 1st and meet up my cousin.

he is A1 student lahh,
thought he always showoff abt it,
but it's the fact.
he get A1 for chem/bio, A2 for pure bio, A1 for a math, A1 for math.
ask him to teach me chem.
as my chem is disaster.

i get to noe alot of organic chem alr.
friday taught by wee, and nw my cousin.
but we only manage to study for 1.30 - 3.30. and we head for lunch at kfC.
as he got tuition 12-1.30 and later 4.30- 6.30.
also, i will be meeting him next week to study again. ;D

at kfc for lunch.

quote of the day : u cannt fail a test when u are came well- prepared. (from my cousin)

OVERDUE PICTURE, GATHERING WITH RELATIVE

MY LITTLE COUSIN
BUBBLES.

OHH,, anyway, i nowadays keep seeing double no. for the time. [e.g. 1.11, 11.11, 4.44] whether it's coincidence or what, i dont noe. and i dont noe what's the meaning behind it. hahaas. random.

it's not a secret that i am nt on good term with them.
most of them noe, and even some of the teachers.
friends and teachers came and ask me.
it's bothersome.
it's nt exactly a quarrel/fight.
so i dont noe hw to reply what they asked.

anyway, it is nt me who assume that anonymous is xuanle.
and the 'to xuanle' was not written by me.
to make my stand clear be4 anyone can pinpoint.
and i wont be entertaining those 'ishouldntbebother taggs'
taggs will only be reply among friends.
criticise me all u want,
i wont bother.
i noe i am nt prefect. no one is.

so today, i am late.
1hr detention.
i dont noe since when i think detention is fun.
hahaas.
like u can noe more friends there,
as u will be bored doing nth,
saw some familiar faces and u will engage in a conversation.
that's hw it works.
ok, my late was maybe due to slping late the night be4.
i slept at 2am.
which i only have merely 4hrs slping time.

after sch, stay with yienqing to study chem with wee.
wee left and made us do work ourselves when wendy came.
and claim that will be back at 2.30.
Astraf too was waiting for wee.
end up we waited for 1hr.
yienqing left.

call wee and she finally came at 3plus.
astraf just ask a few qtns and left.
study with wee, and she leaving.
lend me her chem txtbk.
study alittle and left when wendy back ard 4.30.

too tired !
slp till suddenly awake
by li jiawei match with china for bronze.
she lost, but she played well. she was in 4th position.
top 3 for table tennis, guess wat.
all from CHINA.

have been staying in sch and study with yienqing
and find teachers.
if we happen to find any.
just anyhw find teachers.
hahaas, that's hw we work.
find and then find qtns to ask teacher.
gopal and then chan.
actually wanted to find wee too.
but she seem on hot spot.
hahaas.

study and study!
prelim2 to do well and so do O.
no more time to be waste.
less than 60days to O !

anyway, there is problem with my taggboard.
cannt tagg. even myself.
i will work that out again. ;D

got back my english result.
paper 1 was shocking fail.
paper 2 was shocking pass.
weird hur.

normally people pass paper 1 and not paper 2.
i am also shock with my passing of paper 2.
but it the exactly pass type.
however, i am real disappointed i fail my paper 1.

overall with the adding of oral.
i still fail by miserably 1 mark. hahaas.

nvm, i am working real hard nw.
prelim 1 was real bad.
just hope this history wont repeat for my prelim 2.
everybody, let's synergy. ;D

basically, i am trying to make out a time plan for my studies.
and i have a little dirty secret.
'i dont like my family to see me studying. '
hahaas.
i dont noe why too.
so, if i was to study, i have to lock myself in the room and get with it.

anyway, the table tennis thing is all singapore know thing.
they lost the gold and won the silver.
though it was expected. but it mark the 40+ year with the first silver.
see hw small is singapore to win like once a while.
it already remarkable. silver better than none.

yanqi told me serious talk today,
and another dirty little secret of mine.
i cannt get serious. hahaas.
though i cannt get serious, i do listen in what she says.
and i did thought of it ok. hahaas.

and, i think that lesbian couple are sweet.
sweeter than normal couple.
but no, i am nt lesbian.

the indirect communication sounds weird. ;D

wow, my result was so expect for chemistry.
failed. hahaas.
ok, i have to work hard.
this weekend to begin with..
will be doing :
- ten year series chemistry.
- revise chapter for chemistry.

chemistry to start with.
hope i really do what i say i will.
hahaas.

anyway, after sch today which ended 12.30.
head to opus, do my touch up F&N and printed.
after some comment from teacher to add more pages at DM and R&D.
as i only have 33 pages.
+/- 40pages will be best.
after HOURS ! finally reaches abt 36pages.
and u noe how long this hours take ?
it taken 6 bloody hour !
from 12.30 - 5.30 like that.
goshh.. long hur.
didnt eat throughout, so hungry.
i think everyone who stays there till this late feel that too.

furthermore, i waited for the 3rd bus before able to board.
coz it's both fully packed for the first two.
home and full.
hahaas.

anyway, my paternal grandmother's 100days is over ytd.
but didnt went to temple as have sch.
yahh.
and tml, went to maternal grandmother's house for dinner.
gathering for once in a while.

today i reach sch at 7.40.
power hur.
i waited for 187 for 30mins.
176 is no longer available, as it is alway so packed.
last time alr pack with common wealth students.
nw, that hongkah students move to common wealth sec area.
and common wealth move to west coast,
it is MUCH MORE packed !

anyway, no detention for me, even though i was so late.
because 9 other people are late because of 187 too.
so we are under pending !
hahaas, mr.tay today says ' u look like renzo'
lols ! again. alot people keep saying i look like him.
but i dont think so siia.
he told me renzo have a sister, and ask me to find out.
i said, why should i find out.
he say ' then u can prove that u are nt his sister'
hahaas. he siiao. lols.

another paper back today.
and also today then i saw my physic paper.
fail my physic !
wtH !
when can i see a passing for my paper.
history back, surprise, nt shocking.
32/50.
anyway, my history is nt consistent.
but anyway, this help me to pass my overall for CH.

tml there is chemistry, getting back paper or not,
i am expected to fail.
so dont bother looking.
after tml, i can say complete byebye to F&N,
for all coursework. but nt theory paper.

i found out a monstrous thing.

prelim1 over, and the worst nightmare came.
the result.
and yes, it damn disappointing.
i thought i did my best, but it dont seem to be.

result out for math and SS today.
both are really disappointing.
fail my SS ?
C5 for my math ?
how shocking but true.

i have to really buck up nw.
nw that i have focus all my concentration on study.
i hope for a better.

anyway, thanks denise and soozhen for ur longggg msg.;D
tml is my grandmother's 100 days -vesary.
i dont noe hw they count, but they say it's tml.

ENGLISH O LVL ORAL IS OVER !

whether i do well or nt is another problem.
but at less a relief in me.
oral which to face the examiners.
is always the biggest things compared to paper.

english o oral is over.
but it's also mean the beginning of O lvl.
first O lvl for me to start with.
those who had nt taken, wish u luck. ;D

more offline msgs from them.
lols, nw i noe why poy tagg me wink wink wink hur !
hahaas, they are so sweet.

♣ jiayun sent 8/11/2008 11:13 AM:
Darling.. i don know wat happen to you and your friends.. but don think too much okies? stay happy.. don worry.. you still got us ya?? we will always be there for u.. rmb.. O is more impt den anything else now.. don let anything effect you okies?? cheer up.. u can share with me anything if u trust me enough.. LOVE AND MISS YOU!! good luck for O.. and cheer up!!!


pigu yanggg sent 8/11/2008 10:39 AM:
(L) here for youuuuuu~ lol! hack care them ok? do well in ur o! because it is the most important thing right noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow!!!!!

hahaas, thanks alot hur.
i am alright.
nth wrong.
yahh, i will do well in my O too,
most impt thing right nw.
and i am nt posting this to trying to be sarcastic.
it's just for me to memories.
I LOVE THEM LOTS MORE THAN BE4 ! ;D

another to mark the last post of today.

[b] - JE AN. ; GU [c=5 sent 8/10/2008 11:14 PM:
hey girl. Things hasn't been going well yeah..?? ii know, ii read those blogs. ii'm no one to prob into your life, your problems, but definitely, as one who has gone through sec 1 and 2 with you, you can definitely count me as a friend. not forgetting the two funny people name poy and jeerin. it's jeerin who inform me of all these also. so, count on us. we will be here always. do cheer up if you are feeling down. don't fret over this problem first. O's are coming, they are more impt. do well, pass well, new friendships are on your way. must smile okies..?? hugs. =]

she send me an offline msg,
and yahh. i noe i can count on ur all.
my friends that been thought 3yrs.
and still counting on.
jeerin, poy, wanjun, jiayun, beryl, waiTing. ;D
LOVES !

making a record.
4th post at 1 day.
but i wanted to post.

soozhen's quote for me:
'whatever you do/say, there are people who will like/dislike, agree/disagree. Only those who really understand you, truly understands. You can't expect everyone to like you, agree with you too. So why bother about what others think. You lead your life, they lead theirs. If they're not happy about you, so be it. I'm sure there are still people out there for you. Like me, i'll be there for you! [: Mark my words alright. Luv you -xo Anything, y'know i'm just a text msg or a phone call away okay ha ha -hugs '

i dont noe hw much to thank u.
thought we didnt contact much too often alr.
but once u noe that i am down.
u send me a text.
u there for me.
i noe u are.
and i am really thankful to have a friend like u.
thanks alot. love u too. *hugs ! ;D

nth to do, and here i am to post for the 3rd time.
Beijing Olympic has occupied the tV at every channel.
watched it.
and i love it, i love the women soccer.
pretty babes sure noe hw to play.
hahaas,
Canada no. 8 and 15.
and USA goal keeper no.1 (solo)
they are so chio and yet so power can.
play so well.

saw alot of men in the gymnastic which look so short.
muscle grew where height dont grow.
poor them.

camp rock's rock!
hahaas.
love it, real nice. ;D

even thought u ask me not to reply.
i feel the urge to reply to that.

i said that i will stop msging with him, if i really give him fake hope.
but seriously no one told me.
seriously, the friend u claim. no one.
but nvm abt that.

and then the birthday, yahh.
i am nt paiseh to say, but this is what u have planned.
but from what i heard some of them told me.
they say they feel very badd abt nt talking to her.
so yahh, i agreed. and i shall say stop the plan and start talking to her.

u maybe thankful of what the person told u.
it's ok with me for now.
but when the time i share my thought with them.
i was surprise to hear that they agree with me.
but later i noe i trusted wrongly.

anyway, whether is the problem going to be solve or not.
i will still stay at my current position.
if u want to stay at the matter rest as this way.

and, if u want to draw a line with me,
go ahead.
but daphne, there is this money u should return me by now.
which the blogshop thing of 111 bucks.

this shall be the last post i am going to post abt all these.
once and for all.
so if anything i do for wrong, i am willing to apologise.
as this shall be the last post, 'sorry!'
doubt my sincerity or what, i had said.

ok, let this pour out and be clear.
i didnt say i dont want to noe.
i really want to noe what u feel that make u dislike me.
yahh, sure. i finally noe.
thanks shuwei. and i really mean it.

yes, i dont like u, and u dont like me.
it obvious.

lets see what's with me.
yah i admit i always nv do what i say i want to do.
which i have say that myself which i noe it myself.
but i dont noe why.
and i seriously nt trying to flirt.

another thing of sending wrong signal to a boy.
of coz i mean what i say of ' i dont like him'
and 'i wont go steady with him'
but afterall friends are still in between with him and me.
so, msging like a normal friend?
if i really give them 'hope', i am willing to stop msging with them.
but no one have ever told me this like u claim the 'her'.
coz i seriously dont like 'him'
the 'him' here dont refer to anyone.

like i say, anger is no longer in me.
which is a bad thing.
i didnt go angry for long time.
and i mean it.
the last time i got angry was 2yrs be4.
ok, nw, minhui should learn hw to be angry.

lastly abt my sarcastic comment of crying with joy.
i can really say this,
i dont really like what is plan.
and i also noe that all things happen nt on rachel's birthday.
so yah, rachel; dont bother feeling guilty abt.
u suppose u all say that at least two person was to side with rachel for the plan.
but end up only i am the one.
which later make matter worst.

and for god sake, i didnt try to snatch friends.
like what happen nw, i didnt tell rachel even though i always tend to share my problems with her. and i didnt try to be close with anyone of u there which on the other side of me.
i didnt want to pull anyone to side me.

and i didnt spoke behind ur back at all.
i admit i dislike u, and i am sharing my thoughts with another friends.
which i think i trusted wrongly.
i am nt trying to be a backstabber, and i am really nt one.
i like ur straight forward character but i dont like it when it gone too far.

yes, i am posting real back at xuanle which i think she have gone too far.
which later deleted as i dont want things to turn real nasty.
trying to msg her and solve the problem.
but it didnt work but worsen.
and i dont understand why she get involve.
where things only started happening between u and me.
and i wont ask u to remove that post.
which i dont think it is necessary.

finally last paper today.
physic was still managable.
even thought i didnt study much.
paper 1 for chem and physic was easier than paper 2/3.
so much easier.
hahaas.
finally complete my NE quiz today.
the quiz is so lame lahh.
lols.
play game.
just a game and will hold back my O lvl cert if i didnt do.
nvm, completed.

back home straight after,
as later i going out to meet my friends.
at night.
told my mother i go out and she remind me of O.
wtF! she say' come home early, 70 more days to O'
ahh.. just finish prelim 1, let me relax abit lahh.
she dont noe i having prelim 1 anyway.

went wendy hse for study today,
hazri was there too.
we were all nt in the mood for study.
slack ard and have fun, joking.
hahaas.
chemistry have flunked.
who cares abt physic.

hahaas, hw stupid.

today after math and history exam.
hang ard the canteen and was pull out by anthony.
tgt with jingping and sec 5 malay guy.
went for awhile and home.
si ren jingping, stop bullying me.
dont get overboard till i really turn angry.

minhui dont noe hw to differentiate sad and angry.
hahaas.

BORING !

what a saturday.
decide to start studying for monday test only tml.
so today was left with nth to do.
it's really damn boring lahh.
what's entertain me is only:
- tv
- msges
- and only nw com.
hw boring it is.

minhui always didnt do what she say she will do.
hahahaas, so stupid.